One Day You Will

This post is mainly going to be about my new 'favorite' song but first I have a few things I want to say. This is going to be a long one since I will be including the words of the song.

First of all I want to thank each and every one of you who have left me comments over the last few days. Thank you for all the well wishes for my sick Bo.~After going back to the vet again yesterday he is doing better. Also thank you for all your kind words and encouraging words from the post dealing with Shawn's autopsy. Once again the kindness of strangers has amazed me. I appreciate you kind words more than you know. Several of you said you wished you could reach through the computer and give me a hug. I too wish that we could meet and I could hug each and every one of you. THANK YOU!!!

I also would like to thank Heather at http://mammawannabe.wordpress.com/ for the Butterfly Award. How neat! Thank you for giving me this award. I will be putting the award on my blog soon! Once again thank you!Ok, now onto the "meat" of my post. This summer Shawn and I began listening to music by a new Country group called Lady Antebellum. You can visit their website here: http://ladyantebellum.musiccitynetworks.com/. They are a group of 3 and have a really great sound to them. Shawn and I were going to buy this CD the weekend that he died. For obvious reasons I didn't get it then. So I decided to ask Santa for it for Christmas. I received the CD for Christmas and I love it. I love all the songs on the entire CD. It is awesome. If you go to their website you can hear a snip it of each song if you go to the music link. There is one song in particular that I love on this CD and I had never heard it until I got the CD. It is the last song on the CD and it is called "One Day You Will" I'm going to type the words out so you can read them, but I really encourage you all to go and listen at their website.

One Day You Will:
You feel like you are falling backwards
Like you're slippin' through the cracks
Like no one would even notice
If you left this town and never came back
You walk outside and all you see is rain
You look inside and all you feel is pain
And you can't see it now

CHORUS
But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there's a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won't be much longer
You'll find love, you'll find peace
And the you you're meant to be
I know right now that's not the way you feel
But one day you will

You wake up every morning and ask yourself
What am I doing here anyway
With the weight of all those disappointments
Whispering in your ear
You're just barely hanging by a thread
You wanna scream but you're down to your last breath
And you don't know it yet

Repeat the Chorus

Find the strength to rise above
You will
Find just what you're made of, you're made of

Repeat Chorus

One day you will
Oh one day you will

Every word of this song is so true to me and to what I'm going through right now in my life. However what I really like and find so inspiring and so true are the words in the chorus. I know deep down I will be happy again one day. Or at least I hope I will. I know that if I just keep living one day at a time I will eventually see the silver lining to this horrible situation I am living in. Not that this means it will ever be ok with me that Shawn is gone, because it won't, I will always love and remember him. He will always be with me. I will always love him. The heartache I'm feeling is not like the heart ache of breaking up with a boyfriend, it is much much worse, it is a heartache I have never felt before, but I also know that what I'm feeling is making me a stronger person. I know I'm not ready to fall in love again right now, but maybe someday I will be, and I do hope that someday I will find the peace that I need. Now for my favorite words in the song. "And the you you're meant to be" As I've said before, I'm a totally different person now that I was with Shawn. I need to take this time to find me. I need to figure out who I am as a person with out a husband. I need to figure out who Jenny is. I know that one day I will find the 'me' I'm meant to be. I sure don't feel like that right now, but I know I will figure it out. One day I will!

Ok that is the song! I hope you all like it and I hope you all see why I think this is going to be my theme song for the next while.

Thank you for reading and thank you for helping me to find who I am. One day I will!!