Interview Me

Sorry for not updating yesterday. My friend Jennie has wanted me to join Facebook for a while and for some reason I didn't want to. Yesterday I caved and made a Facebook page. Uhm...lets just say that I have found another computer addiction! I was on Facebook for like 6 hours yesterday. It's great! I'm going to have to figure out a blogging and Facebook schedule now. Or uhm, maybe I should start thinking about finding a job again. Guess we will see.

There is this fun new game going around where blogger's are asked questions by other blogger's. It is a great way of getting to know each other. Again with for some of my new readers I thought this would be fun. I first saw this on Hayley's blog http://hayleymal.blogspot.com/. So I followed the directions and left a comment for Hayley saying that I would be willing to play and be interviewed by her. The next day she sent me the following five questions to answer. Here it goes....

1) Who do you admire the most, who do you look up too?

The person that I admire the most is can you guess...Shawn! His whole life he was told that he would never be a football coach. He was told this by everybody, family and friends, you name it they all told him he was crazy and then he would never coach. Well he didn't listen to a word that anybody said to him. He knew coaching college football was something that he wanted to do because he loved it from the time he was little. He also knew that it would be an extremely hard profession to get into and it was. There were many times that he wanted to give up because it was hard to get the jobs. However Shawn never did quit instead he did the exact opposite, he set his mind to it, worked his ass off and he achieved his dream of being a college football coach. I'm glad that I put the word "COACH" on his headstone, he was and will always will be a Coach. I also admire Shawn because he taught me so much about living and about life. I would not be who I am today without Shawn. Shawn helped to make me...well me and I will always be grateful to him for that. Before I met Shawn I had no confidence and little self esteem. Shawn helped to instill that confidence in me. I still have days where I have little confidence or feel bad about myself for whatever reason but I know I'm getting better with that as well and it is because of Shawn and what he did for me and who he 'coached' me to become.

It's been a while since I've said that I look up to somebody. However, after thinking about it I guess the person I look up to now would be my new friend Sarah. As many of you know she lost her husband as well. Sarah and I have talked at great lengths about losing our husbands and what it feels like to lose like we have. We have also talked about being truly happy again one day. Something that right after Shawn died I didn't think I would ever be again and I wasn't really sure that I wanted to be happy again. Over the last several months Sarah has helped me to realize along with my friends that I will be happy again one day. Sarah has helped to to think that yes, I will always love Shawn and he will always be a part of me, but that it is and will be ok to love again one day whenever it may happen. When I see Sarah I see a person who has gone through what I'm going through, she gets it, she understands but most importantly I see a person who is happy and that is who I want to be again one day. Happy again! Sarah has helped me realize that I know one day again I will be.

2) How did you and Shawn meet? And what did you first think about him?

This story is kind of funny. When Shawn was young he was best friends with my then best friends cousin. We used to swim together all the time when we were young kids. Although he stuck with his friend and I stuck with mine. I wouldn't say that we knew each other. Then my Senior year in high school I dated Shawn's cousin for a very short time. (I didn't know that they were related) Anyways I met Shawn at a family function and I thought he was a complete jerk. Fast forward one year....I needed to get a part time job while I was going to college. The lady I babysat for was co-owner of a pizza place. She offered me a part time job at the pizza place. My first night working I walked in and saw Shawn. I instantly thought "oh great...it's him" I though he was a stuck up jock type of guy. Later that night Shawn's younger sister came in and I saw how great he was with kids and I thought that was kinda cute. As we continued to work with each other we also continued to hate each other. Shawn thought I was a spoiled brat and I though he was a big ole jock. At one point we even asked the boss not to schedule us on the same night, it was just too hard to get along with each other. Fast forward another year...Shawn's grandpa had a heart attack and needed emergency surgery. I saw how upset Shawn was about his Grandpa and I realized that he did have a softer side and that he did care about things other than sports. Anyways one of our co-workers got involved and set us up on a date. We went but talk about an awkward time. I remember we went to a movie and we sat with an empty seat between us. Who does that? So we went to the movie and that was it. We both had a good time, but I don't think we wanted to admit it to each other. Then I really have no idea what got into me but I yes...I decided to ask Shawn out again. We went out on several dates and something just happened and we ended up not hating each other, but falling in love. Aww how sweet right?!

Anyways I guess that is a really long version of how we met and what I first thought about him.

3) What are the positive and negative things about blogging for you?

I think there are many positives about blogging at least for me. You all already know that when I started this blog it was just something fun for me to do as a way to stay connected with some of my friends that I lived far away from. My family didn't even know about my blog because I didn't want them to know I was trying to get pregnant. Originally my blog was just for fun and a way for me to spew about what was going on in my life. Which was a big ole nothing! In no way possible did I EVER think my blog would turn into what it is today. My blog has become my online journal of my feelings and thoughts about what has happened in my life since Shawn has died. So a positive of blogging for me is that I can get my thoughts out and when I do it usually makes me feel better. Another HUGE positive is all the great people that I have met through my blog. I now email on a daily basis with several of my followers. I have also found a great deal of support from the people who read my blog and the comments that you each leave. I'm also grateful that through my blog I am able to help other people who may be going through a similar situation. You all know how I like to help people. :) Again thank you to each of you for reading and for helping me deal with what is going on in my life. With my blog, each of you, my family and friends I can honestly say I'm doing well.

Well I don't know if I really have any negatives to blogging. Other than the fact that I spend entirely too much time on the computer reading blogs. Just the other day I read my usual blogs and then just started bouncing around to others, before I knew it I was on the computer reading blogs for almost four hours with doing nothing else. That would be my only negative.

4) If you could do any job in the world what would it be?

Man this is a hard question, especially since I'm trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. However, I'm thinking that if I could pick any job in the world it would be to travel around the world and help children in countries that are in great need of help. It would be a wonderful feeling to either take a child out of a horrible situation or better yet to help the situation that they are living in to become better. So to travel around the world helping under privileged children would be my dream job.

I would also really like to go back to school and get my degree in massage therapy and then open up my own massage therapy office one day.

5) What is your favourite season and holiday of the year?

My all time favorite season is summer. I love it when the weather gets hot. You will very rarely find me complaining about the hot weather. I love being outside when it is nice and warm. I do love spring as well because I love the way spring smells, when you smell spring in the air you know summer is right around the corner. This year I really want to try and make it a point to do more activities outside during the spring and summer months. I want to enjoy the outdoors much more this year.

My favorite holiday is Christmas. I love getting together as a family and celebrating the day. You know it is the one day of the year where everybody loves everybody and everybody gets along. Even this year when Christmas wasn't really Christmas I still loved the day. There is something special about Christmas day and being with family and friends.

Let me know if you'd like to play along and I'll send you some questions!


1. Leave me a comment saying interview me and your email address.
2.If you want to keep your email address private, email me your request to interview you my address is jcoin@alumni.nmu.edu

or if you just want to drop me an email, i will write you back! I promise I will, I love getting emails from you all.
3. I will email you five questions.
4. Answer the questions on your blog.
5. Post rules on your blog with an offer to interview anyone else who emails you wanting to be interviewed.
6. Try and personalise the questions to the particular blogger.