Well it seems that in the last almost 12 weeks I have been doing a lot of retail therapy. (It has been 12 weeks today since Shawn died, 84 days) Since I have moved back home I have made a new friend named Sarah (more about Sarah in tomorrow's post) she is 3 years older than me and lost her husband a year ago in October. Sarah told me that after her husband passed away she also experienced retail therapy. She told me shopping made her feel a little bit better. Well at least I'm not the only one.
Over the last 12 weeks I have gotten myself so many things, pretty much if I want it I buy it. I am starting to feel a little guilty, but at the same time I can't seem to stop myself. Here is a brief list of some of the items I've gotten so far
- 2 Cd's
- 5 or 6 shirts. I really needed those, I gave most of my winter clothes away when I thought I was going to be pregnant this winter. So that's justified...right?
- 6 pairs of blue jeans-Two of them I got the week I moved back, since then I've lost a ton of weight, so I had to get more. I admit I love blue jeans. I got the most awesome pair when Meg was here.
- 1 pair of brown leather high heel boots, I'm seriously thinking about going back for the black pair
- 3 pairs of yoga pants, again none of mine from last year come close to fitting.
- I also decided I had to get my nails done. That's $30 a pop, 2 times a month. But they make my hands look so nice and I love the clicky sound they make on my keyboard!
- Oh ya, I just ordered the today's special value on QVC on Saturday...it was a set of 10 Bare Essentials make up. I love that stuff!! It was a set of 10 items for $40.00, can't pass that up.
- 2 or 3 books to read
- 4 picture frames
- Lotion from Victoria's Secret
- 2 leather purses
- And I can't forget about Bo. He was for sure the most expensive thing I have gotten so far, but dang is he cute. (I'll post more pics of him soon. He is getting big)
- Also about 100 trips to Starbucks. I love their Peppermint Hot Chocolate!
Seriously I need to stop! I'm going to start running out of money soon. I guess the only really good thing is that everything I have gotten has been on sale. I'm a great sale shopper. Well the awesome pair of jeans weren't on sale but three different people not including Meg told me that they looked great on, so I had to get them.
Man now after looking at the long list I really do need to stop buying for me. Christmas is right around the corner I need to start buying for other people. Tis the season!
I would take EVERYTHING back that I have gotten for myself, if it meant I could have Shawn back with me for even just one minute. I would take EVERYTHING back if I could hug and kiss him just one more time.
I will write more soon. I think tomorrows post I'm going to write about my new friend Sarah.
12 comments:
Hi Jen, I've been reading your blog for some time now, and I must tell you, your courage is inspirational. You have gone through so much in such a short time, my heart goes out to you.
Love Amanda.
Ah yes, a woman after my own heart. There is nothing quite like retail therapy is there? After each of my miscarriages, I've always gone and spent a wad of money on something frivolous and pretty. I also always get my nails done, a pedicure and a new hair do during my really down times, it just helps me to feel better.
Enjoy it! You deserve it!
I, too, am an avid shopper! I found that after Samuel died, I shopped a lot. It is a part of how I coped.
I almost ordered that TSV on QVC! Let me know how you like it.
I, it's sad to say, am NOT a shopper by nature. However, even I felt the need to surround myself with new and "gotta have" stuff after Emma died.
Maybe it is a reflex - who knows.
PS- I would DIE for a pair of new blue jeans that fit perfectly!!!
Whatever helps!
We all do retail therapy even if we don't have a good enough reason to indulge. My favorite treat is a facial-getting my nails done would be a waste, since I love to garden and forget to wear my gloves most of the time.
You should go back and get the black pair of boots. You may need them to go with all of those jeans you bought. I wish I could get my nails done. So next time say my name at least once and I will feel like I got mine done. Also shop tons for me I can do much of that right now. Boy do I love to shop and find that one item on sale.
I send hugs to you today. I know if you could take everything back just to have Shawn you would. I am sending you hugs letting you know that Alyce and I are here for you. Keep your head up high....
Dang girl you have went on a shopping spree! You deserve it though. I think retail therapy is great therapy. That is until you get buyers remorse. ((((HUGS))) sweetie.
Ok, you just totally got me in a shopping mood. I used to like to shop, but now I really don't care for it. I can't seem to find the good details. There is nothing wrong with a woman shopping during an emotional healing process. That's the only time I really feel the need/desire to shop. I've heard that the same chemical in the brain is released when we shop and have sex. I don't know how true that is, but if it is, it explains why shopping does feel good.
Mmmmmm.... Peppermint Starbucks! Now you have ME wanting to spend some money. ;)
I thought you were going to give me a real list of things you bought. That sounds like me in ONE day (minus the 100 trips to starbucks, I only go once a day).
I am definitely a proponent of the retail therapy- and any guilt about overspending can be assuaged by a REALLY GOOD PRICE!
Oh- and a really flattering pair of jeans is a must!
Congrats on your finds and good luck transferring your 'therapy' to Christmas shopping!
I have been indulging in a little bit of retail therapy myself lately. Enjoy it!
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