Well I already biffed it at the 30 posts in 30 days. I missed yesterday! My friend came in from Chicago for the week and I totally forgot about posting yesterday. I'm sorry...please forgive me.
My friend was going to come to Michigan for Shawn's funeral, but the 2 of us decided that it would be better for me and something for me to look forward to if she came the week after the funeral instead. We both thought that was a good idea. However, that was the week I found out about the baby, and I didn't want her driving 6 hours with her 5 month old baby if there was a chance that I would miscarry and be in the hospital. So we delayed the trip once again. Then we scheduled it for the second week in October, but something got messed up with her husbands job so she couldn't come then. We decided at that point that we would go week by week and see when she could come again. We then thought it would be fun if she was to come the day after my birthday. Finally my friend and her baby were coming for a visit. She is one of my best friends, we talk almost everyday but haven't seen each other in almost 4 years. I was so excited for her to come. She arrived on Monday at about 11:30 a.m. We have been having a lot of fun together. Mostly shopping, we used to spend a lot of our time at the mall when we were in college. Boy could we find some sales back in the day, some good sales the last few days but nothing too great. Everyday we have gone out to lunch and have pretty much just hung out and talked it has been great! I'm going to be so depressed when she leaves on Friday.
Even though my friend is here and we have been having a great time, I still kind of had a 'hard' day today for some reason. I thought about Shawn a lot today, more than usual and that is a lot.
I'm not sure why, maybe because I know they are laying his headstone this week, maybe because his birthday is in two weeks, then Thanksgiving, then Christmas. Today when we were at the mall almost every store had Christmas decorations. I could hardly stand it, seeing all those decorations kind of made me want to throw up, Christmas was Shawn's favorite time of year, man this is going to suck butt big time. I want to skip Christmas all together this year, but I know I can't really do that. I have to face all the firsts.
Well I just wanted to say sorry for missing a post yesterday, please forgive me. I will try to post everyday until the end of the month.
6 comments:
Jenny-
When I lost my precious granny(who raised me for the most part)the thing that bothered me the most and saddened me the most was seing how everyone else around me was oblivious to my pain. Holidays came and went, people were laughing, eating, going on with their lives. At the same time I was figuring out what to do with mine, sort of floating around in slow motion, with the mute button on. I am sorry you have to go through this special time of the year without your special half. You are in my thoughts as I pray for peace for you in the coming days and months.
Enjoy your friend.....
I know the holidays are going to be one of the roughest moments for you....Hang in there! Rely on your friends & family who love you!
((( HUGS ))) Jen!
I know the next few weeks and months are going to be extremely hard for you. Know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers sweetie!
I think it's great your friend was finally able to come :)
Hang in there!
I lost both of my grandparents this year so I am dreading the holidays. No one could cook or make everyone feel loved like my grandma so I will have to get used to "new normals" also. I hope you will be able to feel the love and support from your bloggy friends!
That is okay that you missed a day on blogging. You have other things going on. I am glad that your friend is able to visit with you. Have a fun time with her.
ou are forgiven!
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