#20-Shawn's Birthday!

As many of you know, today is Shawn's birthday. He would have been 32 years old. Today was bad but not as bad as I thought it was going to be. When I went back to bed after letting Bo outside I did have a few tears. The coaches must have known I was getting all teary because just as soon as the tears started falling, my phone started ringing. Starting at 7:45 this morning the four coaches that were most important to Shawn and I while in Youngstown all called me throughout the hour. Each of them told me how much they missed Shawn, that they missed me couldn't wait to see me again, and that they would be thinking of both of us on this special day. For being a bunch of single guys and football coach's they all are awfully sweet. One of them even left me the sweetest text message today on my phone. Tomorrow is YSU's last game of the year and it is an away game so a group of the coach's are going to go out and have a drink for Shawn on his birthday. Those 4 guys mean so much to me.

After my trip to the mall today I stopped at the flower store and got three roses. 2 yellow, and 1 red. I went to the cemetery on the way home and put the roses on his grave. I only stayed at the cemetery for a few minutes because it was beyond freezing here today and I was afraid that if I started crying the tears just may freeze to my face. (yes, it was that cold) Anyways, I went and put the flowers down and then I just spent a few minutes 'talking' to him. I told him as always that I miss him more and more everyday. I told him that I love him and that nothing or no one in the entire world will ever change that. I also told him that I'm so sorry that he had to die at such a young age and that I was sorry that there wasn't anything that I could do to help him. I also told him I hoped he was having a happy birthday in Heaven. As soon as I said that the sun came out from behind a cloud, I took that as a good sign. I once again told him that I loved him and I missed him. Then I just stood there for a few seconds, turned around and got into my car and left. Only a few tears were shed while at the cemetery.

I was going to use this post today to tell you all a little bit more about Shawn and what he was like as a person and as a husband. However, a 'new' person http://thekirnancrib.blogspot.com/ left a comment on my blog today. When I went to look at her blog she had been tagged by somebody and it was questions dealing with her husband. (yes, for every person that leaves a comment, I read your blog...I now know why blogging is highly addictive) Anyways I thought this would be a fun way for you all to get to know Shawn a little bit better. One day soon I will share more about how great of a person Shawn was and still is with all of you. However for now I thought answering these questions might be fun for you as well (and it will probably make me cry a whole lot less than going into how great Shawn really was, especially on this day) I do promise to make that post one day soon.

About Our Husbands...
1) Where did you meet? We met at a Pizza place where we both worked. T.J's pizza. We hated each other at first. I thought he was a mean jock, who was too wrapped up in sports, and he thought I was a stuck up snot. A year later everything changed....

2) How long did you date before you got married? We dated for 2 years before we got engaged, and we were engaged for 2 years before we got married.

3) How long have you been married? Shawn and I were married for 7 years, 3 months and 1 day. We would have stayed married forever, we loved being with each other. (We were together for 11 years total.)

4) What is your favorite feature of his? Man that is a hard one...I'm picking 2 but there are many more. 1. The way his lips were always so soft 2. His hands-he had the biggest strongest hands, but they were always soft and warm on my skin.

5) What is your favorite quality of his? Again there are/were so many...I think Shawn's best quality was that he always tried his hardest and worked his butt off at everything he did. He was a perfectionist in everything. Shawn always told me he worked as hard as he did so things would be easier for me and our family.


6) Does he have a nickname for you? Shawn usually called me Ms. Jenny (that's what the kids at school called me and it kinda stuck) Other nick names he had for me were...Angel,Silly Girl, and he always called me Jen, hardly ever Jenny and never Jennifer.

7) What is his favorite food? My mom's lasagna. He was also a sucker for Taco Bell.

8) What is his favorite sport? College football. As many of you know he loved UofM football. This would have been a very rough season for him as they are not doing well at all.

9) When and where was your first kiss? Our first kiss was in the back of his mom and dad's van on the way home from Nashville, TN. Our trip to Nashville is where we really started to fall in love with each other.

10) What is your favorite thing to do as a couple? We would just hang out. Usually go to the mall and walk around talking and just being with each other. We were also known to just stay at home and be with each other just the two of us. This summer we got into watching the West Wing series. We watched almost all 7 seasons. We had the last 5 episodes to watch before he died. Within the next few weeks, I'm going to watch the remaining episodes. I have to for us!

11) Do you have any children? We found out I was pregnant 10 days before Shawn died. As many of you know 5 days after his funeral I found out the baby stopped growing and I had a D&C 3 weeks later.

12) Does he have a hidden talent? Shawn would say no, but he could sing really really good.

13) How old is he? Shawn would have been 32 years old today, November 21.

14) Who said "I love you" first? We actually both said it at the same time. We were laying next to each other on the couch. I told him I wanted to tell him something, then he told me he wanted to tell me something. We both just kinda sat there for a few minutes, then we both looked at each other and said "I love you" at the exact same time.

15) What is his favorite type of music? He loved Country.

16) What do you admire the most about him? The way that he loved me and how good of a person he was.

17) Do you think he will read this? He won't be reading it, but he knows all of my answers to the questions.

I hope you all enjoyed learning a little bit more about Shawn. One day I will write much more about him, so you will all know how great of a person and a husband he was.
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Shawn,
I love you and Happy Birthday
Love,
Your Angel