Jenny,Jenny my friend Jenny how we "met"

OK well here goes my first post sorry if the punctuation is messed up not so good at that LOL.

Well I first "met" Jenny on the w.e.b MD message board TTC just starting out or the 6 month board we seemed to hit it off and before we knew it we were emailing back and forth then we exchanged phone numbers which Shawn was not happy about until i sent him an awesome Kevin Harvick photo i took at the NASCAR race i went to,then i am pretty sure he was OK with it LOL.We immediately hit it off we could just about anything almost as if we had known each other all our lives.We were both still TTC so we talked about that, talked about all the tests and procedures we would do or not do talked about N.A.S.C.A.R pretty much everything i don't think there is anything we cant talk about.

Jenny finally got pregnant and i just knew it i had that feeling and was hounding her to test and she did and she was prego!!!! i was so excited for her i started telling her kinda what to expect (since i had been KU before) but she was also very good to me since i myself was having a hard time getting Ku but any way we kept in touch talking laughing about all sorts of stuff.

Then one day she was telling me how Shawn wasn't feeling good and that the docs kinda were blowing him off and that they were so not happy cause he knew something was off,then the awful day of August 18 i called to do my usually check in and to chat and i immediately knew something was wrong she had told me that Shawn had to go to the hospital i asked if everything was OK and she said no he had passed:(. Now i have never met her or him but this feeling had come over me i felt like i was gonna throw up,i got goosebumps all over my body then i start crying,i don't have any brothers or sisters but i had that feeling that i was hurting for someone very close to me.

I called all the time to check in on her see how she was doing if there was anything i could from so far away,i was the one who posted to the boards on the TTC board and her blog.Then came another bad day the day she miscarried:( I didnt even know what to say except i am sorry but again i still wanted to make sure she was ok so i called everyday to see how she was and we would talk i would try to make her smile i think i did ok :).

Ok so we all now the awful stuff that she has gone through and it SUCKS ASS,but i think she is one of the most strongest people i have ever met, (ok here come the damn tears).... I have NO idea how she is even doing this but she is doing a great job!.She has her head straight and knows what she needs to do and she is doing it little steps at a time.I feel very honored to have met her and know that i have met a true friend,hopefully some day we can met face to face cause i know we could have some serious fun,and do alot of damage shopping,and all sorts of other fun stuff.

I also know that Shawn is happy we became friends i remember him in the background laughing at us at all the stuff we talked about!!! and every time i log onto this blog his name is the first thing that loads and i told jenny that i think he is saying thanks to me for being there for his wife:)

Ok i hope i did OK this is my first time ever doing this! sorry if the periods and commas are all in the wrong spot!!!

Jenny i love ya like a sister:)

Love Nicole