It's Faithful Friday Time...

First of all I want to tell you that something 'happened' to me today. Don't worry, I am fine. However, today I experienced something very odd, but yet very peaceful feeling and kind of unbelievable all at the same time. I want to share it with you all, but it's the weekend, and well not many people have time to read on the weekends. So instead of doing the Halloween costume post on Monday, I'm going to keep you in costume suspense for another day and tell you about my experience today on Monday instead. Then later in the week I will finally tell you all what I was for the Costume party. But for now lets get on to Faithful Friday.

"God gives us always strength enough and sense enough for everything he wants us to do."
John Ruskin

(This quote has a little to do about what happened to me today.) I've said it before and I'm sure I will say it again. Two years ago if somebody would have told me that Shawn was going to die and I'd have to learn to live without him I would have just laughed in their face. There would have been no way I would have said I would have been able to get through "this" Two years ago if somebody told me my husband was going to die, I would have said to dig a whole next to him, because that is where I want to be.

Obviously 14 months later I did not choose to be put in my own hole. I did not choose to die with Shawn, instead I decided to face my grief head on, and I decided how to learn to live again. Although, that is one of the hardest things I have ever and will probably ever do in my life. When people comment on how "well" I'm doing I have always responded with, "Shawn always said I was stronger than I gave myself credit for. In our life together Shawn, taught me how to be strong." I've also told people that I would have never of gotten through this without Shawn's strength as well. In responding to me people would also say that they agree with what Shawn said about me being strong. Many would tell me that, "God doesn't ever give you more than you can handle" At first, I would get angry when people would tell me that. I NEVER EVER wanted to be this strong. I never wanted to learn how to live again without my husband, or our child. I NEVER asked to be this strong. I liked being little Jenny who depended on my husband.

Looking back at it now I do believe that both Shawn and God has given me the strength that I've needed to live through the worst time of my entire life. I truly believe that Shawn was in my life to teach me this and that strength is something that I will carry with me the rest of my life. I'm grateful for the strength from Shawn and from God, because I know without that I would not have gotten through this grief as "gracefully" as I have. That is not saying that every day has been a walk n the park, because that is for sure not the case. I know that in the future I will be able to handle most anything that is passed my way because of this strength.

Remember, you never know how you will handle a situation unless you are faced with that situation. God and the people you surround yourself with will help give you the strength you need to face it.

What does this quote mean to you? Please share your thoughts with me.

Please stay tuned for Monday's post. I think you will all be amazed at my story.