I Think This Will Blow Your Mind

This is the post where I'm going to tell you about what happened to me on Friday. There are lots of details that will be in this post, so it may get a bit long. Please stick with me and try to finish. I think you will all be amazed or slightly wigged out, not sure which one yet. I'm still trying to make up own mind about what happened. If you leave a comment I would like to know your thoughts on this whole thing.

First a little background.
I think I have mentioned this before but just in case I will mention it again. There are three other ladies here in town that I have become very close friends with. All of our husbands suddenly passed away within three weeks of each other. We all used the same funeral home, and between the three week span we were all at the funeral home with each other, without knowing one another. Anyways, we have since become amazing friends and we hang out and spend time with each other almost weekly.

Earlier this spring a few of the ladies mentioned that they wanted to get in contact with something called a Medium. A Medium is different from a Psychic in the way that a Medium gets in touch with spirits (if the spirits are available and want to be contacted) and a Psychic looks into your future. Well they all wanted to talk with a well known Medium to see if they could find out about the spirits of their husbands. I was VERY hesitant about the entire thought of this. For one I'm not entirely sure if I believe in the entire topic of getting in touch with the spirits. I just don't know and I also think it could be an easy way to scam people out of money. Especially people who are so eager to hear from the spirits of their passed loved ones. I also didn't want the Medium to tell me anything I didn't want to hear. I didn't want the Medium to tell me that Shawn was unhappy with what or how I have been doing. Well, a few of them went and were totally shocked with the results from their readings. Each of them walked away with a sense of peace because the Medium told them certain things about their life with their husbands without knowing anything about them. I was so happy that they were relieved and at peace with their readings, but was still hesitant to say the least. I just didn't think it was something for me.

Well on Friday afternoon I went with one of the ladies to a W omen's Expo that was being held at a local college. There were hundreds of vendors there all related to women's health. Where the two of us started just happened to be with all the Medium's, Psychics, and Tarot Card readers. The lady I was with talked about getting a reading. Once again I was on edge with the whole thing. I kind of wanted to get a reading, but then again I wasn't sure if I believed in that type of thing so I didn't want to. Well, while my friend was setting her purse down the Medium came up to me and said hi. I said hi back, but admit I was kind of snotty acting with her. She turned and looked at me and then said, "I see several spirits are with you right now" I just looked at her and thought...Yeah, sure there are. I waited at another table while my friend got her reading done. At this point I decided that I would get my reading done, more or less for shits and giggles than anything else. After all, since I didn't believe in it if she told me something I didn't like I would just tell myself that it was a scam, and not to worry about it.

Ok, hang on to your seats here...

When it was my turn I went up and sat in the chair. I put my purse on the floor and I sat down. The Medium told me she wanted to give me a hug to get more in touch with my auora, but to be honest her perfume smelled god awful and I didn't want the smell to rub off on my clothes so I told her no. Plus it's cold and flue season, I'm not hugging just some random person. (yes, I'm also a germ freak) Anyhow back to the story.... I sat down and she looked at me and told me that I'm a very grounded person. I just shook my head in agreement. She told me that it looked like I had my head on straight, and she also said that her feelings were telling her that I'm a stubborn person. Yes, I do tend to be a little on the stubborn side, but again I just shook my head. She then went on to say that her feelings were telling her that I have been through some very trying times over the last 15 months. At first she couldn't tell what it was but then after a while she said that it was a sudden death, then she said that it was the death of my husband. I shook my head once again. The Medium then went on to say that his death was unexpected and that we didn't get a chance to say good-by before he passed away. At first she said that Shawn died in a car accident, but after a few minutes she said no that it was a sudden health problem. As you all know, Shawn passed away from a sudden and massive heart attack at 30. Once again, I just sat there and nodded my head. (she never called Shawn by name, just my husband)

Then the she told me that I had healing spirits all around me and that she could tell that even though I have awesome family and friends, it's always me trying to take care of everyone else. She told me it is hard for me to let my family or friends take care of me. Yup. She then said that she could sense that I wanted to go back to school, something in the health care field. I said, well yes kind of, but never told her what I wanted to go to school for. Then, after a few more minutes she said that I wanted to go back to school and help people with my hands. Uh yeah, I want to go back to school for massage therapy. After a few seconds of her sitting there with her eyes closed she told me that yes my husband was there with us and that he wanted to "talk" as well. She told me that my husband said that he wants me to go back to school. She asked me if Shawn and I ever talked about me going back to school and all I said was yes. She said that Shawn wants me to go back and do this because it is something that he thinks I would be great at. I had major goose bumps.

Then she tells me that Shawn wanted me to know that he was sorry that he had to leave me so fast. However, he knew that it was his time to go. He knew it was his time because he was put on our earth to help teach me lessons in life. Lessons that I learned from him that I would always carry with me in my future, lessons that would always impact my life. Once he felt that I was ok, then he knew he would be leaving me. Uhm, when she told me this I about burst into tears, but somehow held it together. She also told me that Shawn wanted me to know that it is ok for me to be happy again, that he wants me to be happy. He said that he knows I will find love again one day and that won't mean that I will ever stop loving him, because he will always be with me. Once again, goose bumps and eyes filled with tears.

She also sensed that since his death I have questioned my faith and have been trying to figure things out on a spiritual and religious front. I mean, how would she know that I have started going to church? Weird....

Ok, if you aren't sitting down do so now what she told me next almost made me fall over:
She asked me that since Shawn was there with us she wondered if I had any questions for him or wanted to tell him anything. Gulp....I said out loud that I wanted Shawn to know that I love him so much and that I miss him more than I ever thought I would. Once again she asked if I wanted to ask him anything. I said, yes. Then, I told her I just wanted to make sure that Shawn was happy, and that he was ok. She closed her eyes for a few seconds and then said that Shawn's spirit said that yes he was happy, and that since being "here" is the best he has ever felt in his entire life. (Eyes filled once again) Then she closed her eyes for another few seconds and she came back saying that Shawn wanted me to know that, " We are ok" she stopped talking for a split second, then said, "He wants you to know that your baby is with him and that the two of them are constantly with you and watching over you." I can't even begin to tell you what happened when she told me that. I have no idea how I kept it together, but somehow I did. I had goosebumps the size of Canada on my arms, and my eyes were full of tears and I had the strangest feeling come over me.

She also told me two other things, but they are very private and I can't share them here with you, but I will say there is NO way she could have known about those other two things. Just no way.

After she told me about Shawn and the baby watching over me I got to tell Shawn that I love him. Then my time was up and I got up from the chair and paid the Medium my money. (Don't worry it was not crazy expensive) After our time was up and I stood up she looked at me and said, "You are good aren't you?" I told her yes for the most part, I still have difficult times, but yes I was doing ok. Then she told me not to give up, that I will continue to walk through this, and that I will be happy again. She then looked at me, put her hand up to her heart and said, it was something heart related wasn't it. I didn't do anything. Then she said that my heart was broken, but that it was something in Shawn's heart that lead to his death. I just looked at her and walked towards my friend with huge goose bumps all over my entire body.

I told my friend about what she said and my friend and I just looked at each other. There is NO WAY she could have known any of that. There is no way because I didn't tell her ANYTHING about me or about Shawn...NOTHING AT ALL!

I left there not knowing what to think or to believe. Like I said there is no way she could have known all of this stuff about me. As soon as I got to my car I called my friends Jennie, and Meg to see what they thought. They were both against me doing this earlier for the same reasons I was. As I was telling them they both just sat there amazed at what I was saying. I honestly don't know what to think. I have never really believed in this type of "stuff" before. However, then again, maybe my mind was turned off to it because I never had a reason to believe it.

It feels really odd to say but I do still feel Shawn with me. I'm not talking about the things he taught me, or about what I learned from our life together. Rather, I mean there are times when I really feel him with me. Almost like he brushes up against me really quick and it makes the hair on the back of my neck stand up. That has actually happened to be several times since he has passed away. I don't know how to explain it, but it always seems to happen at moments I need him the most.

Jennie asked me how I felt about the reading. I told her that oddly enough it didn't freak me out. In fact it was just the opposite, I left the reading with an extremely peaceful feeling. In an odd way it was like I got to spend time with Shawn and talk to him once again. I was so happy to know that he is doing ok, and it felt amazing to know that he and our baby are watching over me and are always with me. I'm so grateful that Shawn wants me to be happy again one day. It didn't feel creepy or freaky at all.

I hope you all don't think I have totally lost it or anything like that. I'm still not sure how I feel about all of it. I have to believe that Shawn's spirit was there because there is just no way that she could know that much about our life together, there just is no way, I didn't tell her anything. Yes, I know there are horrible people out there who scam others, especially others who want to get in touch with their loved ones, but I don't think this is the case. I really feel like it was Shawn, her words were some of the exact phrases that Shawn would use. For now I'm going to believe that I did get to speak to Shawn. I'm going to rest in the peaceful feeling I got from this.

So tell me after reading this do you believe in the "powers" of Mediums? What are your thoughts on this topic. I would love to hear any experiences that any of you have had like this.