A Few Random Thoughts

Well it is Saturday morning it is cloudy and pouring rain where I live in Michigan. Don't get me wrong I'm not complaining in the least, I'm very much relieved that it is rain and not snow. However I did have thoughts of taking Bo for a walk this morning. Instead guess what...I'm sitting at the computer reading and commenting on blogs. Shocking right? I don't have really anything 'profound' to blog about today so I figured I would just write about a few random things.

*Since Shawn has died I have lost about 35 pounds. I'm to the point now where I know I don't need to and shouldn't lose any more weight. However, I do need to work on some major toning issues and getting some muscle back. Shawn and I used to work out out together all of the time. Our second bedroom was set up like a gym with weights and our elliptical machine. We usually worked out in the mornings together before leaving for work. As soon as the weather would get nice we would also go on endless walks. Since getting back from Youngstown I have decided that I start to eat a bit healthier and start working out again, it was something that I enjoyed while Shawn was alive so there is no reason I shouldn't do it now. I worked out 5 days in a row this week. I lifted weights, did a few core exercises and rode on the elliptical every day. Last night while at Target I saw this workout DVD and thought it looked like a good one, so I ended up buying it. Have any of you seen it or have used it? I also saw it on Kelly's blog ( http://www.kellyskornerblog.com/) Anyways, I now own it and I'm going to start working out with this as well come Monday morning. I figured I might as well take the weekend off. *I have been having problems with my cell phone. Up until yesterday I had the Razor phone and I loved it. However, the last few weeks the battery has been dying on me and not holding a charge with a darn. A few weeks ago I took it in to see if they could fix it and the only thing they said they could do was to reformat it. They told me I would lose all the text messages, pictures, and voice mails I had on it. I instantly got into a panic because I have all text's, pictures, and one voice mail on there from Shawn. There was no way I was going to have those deleted from my phone. At the store they then told me I could wait until March 6th and then get a rebate for a new phone and then all of those precious things could be transferred to that phone. That is what I decided to do and everything transferred over to my new phone perfectly. I went to the cell phone store yesterday and purchased the LG Dare. It is awesome!! When texting I can use the standard texting screen or I can flip the phone onto its side and it will turn into a keyboard. How cool is that? It also has a drawing feature on it...like paint shop. It is entirely way too much phone for me and I will for sure never ever use all of the features, but I have to say I do feel totally cool being able to check my email while standing in line at Target. (I know I need a life)

*Since Shawn has died my Aunt in Arizona has been wanting me to come for a visit. She wanted me to come right after I found out about the baby,but at that point and time there was no way in the world I was ready for riding on a plane and switching planes in an unfamiliar airport by myself. Guess what I'm ready now. I haven't bought my ticket or anything like that yet, but I no I can do this and I'm really looking forward to the trip. As of now we are planning for the middle or end of April. It will be nice to go out there, spend some time with my Aunt and cousins and enjoy the hot weather. I will keep you all updated on when the trip will actually happen.

*I think I may have figured out what I want to do with myself for my future. I'm very much considering going back to school and getting my Masters Degree in Counseling. However, I'm thinking I may like to specialize in Grief counseling. I think I would really like to help other "young widows" out there with what they will be facing after losing their spouse. No one can tell you what it will be like and all the millions of emotions that you will feel except for a person who has been through the loss their self. I think that is why Sarah and I have become such fast friends, she gets it and she knows exactly how I'm feeling on any given day. Although it would be a hard job I think I may like to work in a hospital setting and be there for a person right after they have been told about a loss. The day Shawn died there was nobody like that at the hospital. (well if there was a person like that I do not remember) After the Dr left the room we all just kind of did our own thing and went in our own direction. It would be nice to have a comforting person to help you with the initial shock and then be there to help them in the future as well as they come to terms with what has happened. For now this is just a thought in my mind, I need to look into it further, but just thought I would share my thought with you.
Oh...my friend Jennie and I also have something stirring in our minds as well, but for now it is a secret. I'm going to keep you in suspense a while longer.

*Many of you have been asking me about "T". Things are going well. Obviously since he too lives in Youngstown we don't see each other every day (duh) but we do talk on the phone and text each other all of the time. Many of you have asked for pictures as well, I'm sorry to say I only have one of us and we were both sleeping on the couch. I really don't know why we didn't' take more pictures but we didn't, maybe next time. I'm planning another trip to Youngstown in a week...have to wait and see what I come back with then. For now thought I wanted to let you all know that things are going really well and we are both enjoying talking and getting to know each other more.

*Oh this is BIG....I can't really say a whole lot about this yet because I'm not sure if "this" has officially been announced yet. However I was talking to a person yesterday about Shawn and they told me some very exciting news that deals with Shawn. It instantly brought tears to my eyes and I have never been more proud of Shawn than I was in the moment that they told me what the news was. (don't worry they were the happy tears) Like I said, I can't say anything about it just yet, but when I can you better believe I will be sharing it with all of you. Keep checking back for updates!! This is big!! (well at least I think so, but then again I may be close to the situation)

*Ok well that just about wraps up the random thoughts I have had floating in my brain. I hope this was ok to have just a random post today instead of something deep and serious. I also just want to take this time to personally thank each and every one of you for reading my blog and for leaving me such great comments. I love reading them everyday and I also enjoy reading your blogs as well. So THANK-YOU!!! Also thank you to all of my new readers the last few days!!

Until next time...