I'm home

I wanted to let everybody know that I got home today around 3:00 and that everything went well.

I only cried one time during the entire day. When I was back waiting to go to the OR my nurse flipped through my chart and must have saw something about Shawn. So she asked what had happened and I told her. She looked at me with tears rolling down her face and told me that I had been through so much in such a short time. Then she asked if she could hug me, I said yes, but that is when my tears started falling. I really wanted and needed Shawn to be there with me. He was there though, I could feel his hands on me.

Next the anasteselogist (no idea how to spell that) came in and asked if I wanted somthing to take the "edge" off. I said sure. He put something that looked like milk in my IV and said I wouldn't fall asleep just feel real drowsy. Boy was he wrong that crap knocked me clean into last year and quick. I didn't remember anything from that point on. The Dr. told my parents that she came in and talked to me. Could have fooled me, I have NO memory of anything from the milky substance in the IV. I could have told the Dr. I was the Queen of Egypt for God's sake. I don't even remember being wheeled to the OR, or being wheeled to my room. The only thing I remember is having to go pee so I could get the hell out of there. I think I only remember that is because it burned like a mo fo when I went to the bathroom. Apparently that wil happen for a few times after. Oh yeah!!!

So I'm home a little crampy and a lot tired and still kind of feel a little loopy from all the drugs but I'm doing ok, resting on the couch at home. Shawn was right, maybe I am stronger than I gave myself credit for because I was scared all day but did much better than I thought I was going to.

During the next few days I'm going to be changing my blog. I'm going to take the baby ticker off the top, change the about me intro part, and change the wording on the very top of my blog. I was going to change the name and address as well, but I've decided not to that. I'm going to keep it The Tale of Two Coins because I figure I will still talk about Shawn if you all don't mind, and how my life is changing without him. So it will still be about "us" but just in a different way. Whatever the future holds for me I will change it then.

Thanks again for all the encouraging words and well wishes. I don't even really "know" any of you, but you have all been so great to me. If I ever seen any of you I would give you all huge hug.

Thank you again, and talk more soon.
Jenny