Boy I don't know where the time has gone this week. I feel like this week has gone by just so fast. Tomorrow is already Thursday!
I have wanted to post many times this week but I have been busy. I picked up a part time babysitting job a few days a week. I thought this was a small step for getting back into the swing of working. In the fall I will be watching the kids only two days a week, but his week I have watched them everyday. Needless to say I have been gone more than usual. This last week I have also had lots of outings with friends. All in all it hasn't left much time for posting on my blog, or commenting on others. Although, I have been reading! I'm so sorry about that and I hate not posting or commenting. It really does help me get my thoughts and feelings out.
The one year mark of Shawn's death is just 13 days away and I have many thoughts stirring around in my mind. Many of which I'm thinking of sharing with you. I have already shared so much with all of you, I figure why stop now. For now I'm heading to bed. I am so tired!
I will be posting again and soon. Although I still have a peaceful feeling surrounding me I am starting to get a bit anxious about the one year anniversary. I'm not exactly sure what I want to do on that day. Nor am I totally sure how I will be. So if you don't mind, as the day approaches will you all say an extra little prayer for me? I'm really hoping it will be like all the other firsts I've had throughout this year. Where the days leading up to the 'event' are much worse than the actual day.
Stay tuned for more of my jorney. I will post tomorrow.
Thanks for reading, thanks for all the wonderful comments and more than anything thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the kindness and support you all have shown me throughout this year.
8 comments:
Glad you have a fun job. I hope you are having a great Summer so far. I know the day head may be hard but I am here if you need me.
Jen- of course I will pray for you! I think the anticipation of knowing "the day" is coming is going to be more harder than the actual "day" itself! I can only imagine the thoughts racing through your mind right now, and I'm happy you can open up and share them with us. Can't wait for your posts! :) I guuueesss I can forgive you for not posting! ;) Totally kidding!
Hope the babysitting job keeps going well, are you SURE you know what you got yourself into?! ha! ;)
I hope you don't mind my asking, but you haven't mentioned "T" (I think that was how you referred to him?) in a while, are you still seeeing him?
Also, with the anniversary approaching, I was wondering how Shawn's parents are; do you keep in touch with them?
I feel like I'm being nosy, but you share everything else so I don't know if any topic is off limits
Glad you are doing well.
I have found in my experience that the days leading up to certain dates and holidays have been worse then the actual days. For the one year anniversery I went to the cemetary with friends and then went and celebrated his life with them. I am glad to read that you have a peaceful feeling. I am looking forward to the day that I can have that. Just remember he will always be proud of you and are doing the best you can! Take care and you are in my prayers.
Dea
Jen,
Of course I will pray for you. I have been praying for you since September when I found your blog. Why would that change now? Good luck with the babysitting.
Cheryl
As always you will continue to be in my prayers as the year mark draws closer!
Hang in there girl!
So glad to hear you're working. I think that's a really good step. I will be thinking of you on the anniversary, but I think you're right. you've faced all the other milestones, and you'll get through this one.
I'll keep you in my prayers Jen. I know that day will be hard. (((HUGS)))
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