Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Follow Up Dr.Appoitment

Let me just start off by saying that one of m biggest pet peeves is when people are late, or worse yet when somebody else makes me late. Can we say aggravating? Anywho yesterday I had my follow up Dr. appointment after having my D&C. My appointment was for 2:15, because I like to be on time I arrived at 2:05. Upon checking in I was told that the Dr. had an emergency C-section and that the office was running a "tad" behind. I said no problem asked how long and the receptionist told me about 20 minutes. Irritating yes, but I figured I'd cut them some slack after all it is an OB office and we all know babies come when they want to. I brought my book and figured I'd sit, read and try to relax for a while.

However after 45 minutes I was starting to get a little shall we say pissy. The time was then 3:00 and they still had not called my name. I also swear to God that possibly the most irritating young 20 something looking girl was sitting next to me. First she was silent, she was however a very heavy breather and I could hear every breath she took, but I thought I would just ignore her breathing. Then she started to talk and I swear she never shut up the rest of the time I was in the waiting room. But what she was talking about was what was getting to me. She was talking to the lady sitting next to her and saying how she can't wait not to be pregnant anymore. That she was only 12 weeks and was already feeling like it was the longest 12 weeks of her life and she didn't even have morning sickness. She continued to complain on and on about she hated being pregnant and that she wasn't even looking forward to feeling her baby move inside of her. At this point I thought it would be a good idea to sit on my hands because I kinda felt like I was going to smack her in her ugly face. Finally they called her name to go back to see the nurse. I realize that I didn't come into the office with a neon sign above my head that said I had a miscarriage a few weeks ago after 14 months of trying and not to talk about being pregnant, but come on have a little compassion and respect for all the other people sitting in the waiting room. Who really knows what each of us was there for.

Time now 3:20. I had been in that office for 1 hour and twenty minutes without moving. UGH!! I was just about ready to leave when my good friend Jenniehttp://happymayhem.blogspot.com/ sent me a text to see how my appointment had went. I told her I wouldn't know since I was still in the waiting room. I told her I was going to leave that I was sick of waiting. However, she informed me that I really did need to stay just to make sure that everything was "kosher". So after laughing out loud in the waiting room in response to her text I waited, waited and waited some more.

Finally at 3:40 the nurse called me back. Thank God!!! The nurse took my weight and blood pressure. (By the way I don't usually talk about my weight but I now weigh 124 pounds WAHOOO!!! The day I found out I was pregnant I was 148. I haven't weighed that since I got married. Yes, I'm eating, I just still don't have much of an appetite yet) I digress I saw the nurse talked for a few seconds and she told me that she was sorry that the Dr. was still running behind and I would have to wait for a few more minutes. My lord!! So back out to the waiting room I went.

Finally at 4:05 the Dr. called me back. She said everything looked really good and she didn't see any need to be concerned that I would have another miscarriage in the future (if that time ever comes again) She told me that based on the size of what she took out that the baby probably stopped growing very soon after getting the + HPT. She even thought that there was the possibility that the baby may have even stopped growing before Shawn died. Not that it made me feel any better knowing that. Then she went on to say that since I'm doing so well that I can resume to all "normal" activity that I had before having the D&C. You all know how I feel about the word normal now. But I guess I will have to see what I can do. Time I walked out of the office 4:11. I waited for 2 hours and talked to the Dr. for 6 minutes. At least she was nice and apologized for having me wait so long.

So that is an update with me. I will write more soon. I swear I'm going to start posting every day.

56 comments:

sharona said...

People that complain about being pregnant really irritate me. Especially in the OB/GYN office. Not everyone is there for happy reasons.
(I've been a lurker for a little while now, so sorry for the rough turn your life has taken)

~*JaYmE*~ said...

Man I would have been ticked to have to wait that long too! I'm sorry you ended up being stuck in the waiting room w/such a moron. I'm glad everything was "kosher!"

Keri said...

Just saw your comment on Angie's blog and I wanted to come over here and tell you how sorry I am for your double loss. I know you must be grieving so and it just really stinks that this happened to you. I just wanted to let you know that I said a prayer for you and I won't even try to say words to comfort you. I just wanted to let you know that people you don't even know care.

Life As A Newlywed said...

Hi Jen. My name is Rebecca, I saw your (heartbreaking) comment on Angie Smith's blog...I hope you don't mind me lurking. ;)

I just wanted to let you know that I am praying specifically for YOU tonight! I can't even fathom the pain you are going through. Please know complete and total stranger is heartsick for you...God Bless.

-Becca

Joy Junktion said...

Hi Jen,
I came by via Angies blog. I think you will bombarded with visitors but maybe that will be good for you.
I am so sorry for the losses you have experienced in the past two months. I cannot imagine what you are going through.
I will make it a point to pray for you and come by your blog to check up on you from time to time.
Bless you and your new little puppy.
So cute!
Cindy

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Erin Szczerba said...

Jen,
I am so sorry for what you have endured. I am praying for peace and hope.
Love,
Erin

Val said...

I also found your blog through Angie's and just wanted to let you know our family will be praying for you too. My husband is a Coach too, he is now at high school level - but remember those grunt years at college. I'm so sorry to hear about your loses and hope you know we along with many others will be praying for you! God bless you!

Kasey said...

I found your blog after reading the comment you left on Angie Smith's blog (audrey caroline/bring the rain). I have tears streaming down my face as I read about the loss of your husband and the loss of your child. I'm just a stranger, but I want you to know my heart breaks for you and I will be praying that God gives you healing and strength.

Devon said...

I just found your blog and my heart is breaking for you....

I am so sorry about your husband and your sweet baby. Know you are in my thoughts and prayers...

Anonymous said...

Jen,

I too came right over after reading your comment on Angie's blog. I pray that the God of all comfort will hold you close to Him right now. Go with the grief and don't hold back.

I'm so sorry for the anguish you are in.

Sincerely,

Darlee

The Writer Chic said...

Jen, I found you through Angie Smith's blog....and I just want you to know that my heart broke over the pain you must have endured the last 2 months. I am praying for you, sister.

Candy said...

Jen, I read your comment on Angie's blog and want you to know that I am also praying that you can find some peace and solace throughout every tomorrow. I can't imagine enduring the profound loss that you have had to endure. Please know God will continue to carry you.

Immeasurably More Mama said...

I came here from Angie's blog and honestly I'm speechless. There aren't any words I can say that will make your pain go away, but please know that I prayed for you.

Elaine at Matters of the Heart) said...

You are going to have a ton of visitors. I just want you to know I am praying for you. I know there is nothing I can say that can take your pain away. I will continue to pray.

Erin said...

Came from Angie's blog also. I can't say I've ever cried so much for someone I don't know. Praying for you.

gbmom2407 said...

Okay, so I am over from Angies blog too. Sweet lady, you are in my prayers. I can not say that I have ever lost my husband but two babies yes. I know how you feel about people talking about pregnancy that don't have a clue what we have gone through. I make some people upset sometime becuase I talk about miscarriage. Well, it is a fact of life at our house and really, it makes me feel better. I had to wait a freekin long time at the OB the other day too... so long, I was crying when I went to leave. I was there for two hours and in that time, I was in an ultrasound for 10 minutes and the doctor spoke to me for 4 minutes (when you wait that long, you know how long it all takes)*nope, not pregnant... still following up from the last loss. Please know though that I feel for you. Stay strong He will carry you through. Happy day.

Jamie D said...

I also read your comment from Angie's blog. I am so sorry for your losses. I will be praying for you.

Holly said...

Just wanted to let you know I am thinking and praying for you. I followed the links from Bring the Rain.

Jen said...

Jen,
I came to your blog after reading the comment you posted on Angie's. I am terribly sorry for your loss and cannot imagine the pain you are enduring. I pray that the Lord gives you comfort and peace and that you may turn to Him for strength.
Sincerely,
Jennifer

Courtney and the Boys said...

Jen,

Found you through Angie's blog...

I've read your blog from beginning to current...GOD BLESS YOU.

Thank you for your post about spending time with our husbands. Quality time. I will do that tonight.

I have two little boys and as I read your blog, I checked on both of them on my video monitor many times, thanking God for the blessings they are to me.

I do not know the loss of a child, but I have lost both of my parents. I, too, get so angry sometimes when people talk so "loosely" (for lack of a better word) about their parents or are not getting along with them for silly, trite reasons. They take them for granted and I just want to shake them! I would give anything to spend a couple of more minutes with my parents. But thankfully, I know I will dance for all eternity with them one day. And you, too, can look forward to that joy with your husband and baby.

I am sorry for your losses and pain. You are in my prayers.

Courtney

Jill said...

this is off-topic for your post but....
I just saw your comment on Angie's blog, about loosing your baby.
I am SO sorry!

I also wanted to say that my husband was killed in a motorcycle accident on August 16, 2008.

Just want you to know that I am praying for you as you deal with
double the loss.

Mama Bear said...

Just found your blog and I wanted to say how sorry I am for your losses over the past few weeks! I am praying for you and the post about spending time and loving our husbands touched my heart sooooo much- my dh will probably think I am nuts but when he gets home I am going to do exactly what you said--thanks so much for sharing your story with us!

Anonymous said...

Jen, I found you on Angie Smith's blog. I cannot express adequately how sorry I am for your losses. I prayed for you this evening.
Sandi, San Antonio

Jennifer said...

Jen,
I also found you through Angie Smith's blog. My heart is aching for you! I believe God sent all of us to your blog, to pray for you! I will be doing that and checking in, if it is okay with you. Blessings to you for healing, especially for your heart!

Jennifer

Amanda said...

Saw you on Angie's blog. I will be lifting you up in prayer. I am so sorry for you loss and am praying for comfort for you.

The Shillingburg's said...

I found your blog through Bring the Rain. I have cried the entire time I read through this. I'm so sorry for your loss. On the flip side, you're absolutely hilarious. :) I'll enjoy checking back on you...I bet you didn't expect all the traffic just by leaving a comment on Angie's blog. :)

Erin K. said...

I also came from Angie's blog, and like so many others, I will be praying for you.

Bethany said...

hi- I found your blog through your comment on Angie's blog... just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you tonight.

Lori said...

Also from Angie's blog. I can not imagine. Not even going to try. I know I don't have the words to comfort you so I will just say....I prayed and I am praying for you. Thankful I serve the El Roi....THE GOD WHO SEES ME.

Jenn @ Casa de Castro said...

Hi Jen. I'm Jenn, too. I hope I am not intruding. I found my way here from Angie's blog and wanted to offer you my deepest condolences on the losses of your husband and baby. I wanted you to know that you are being prayed for specifically this evening, and I will continue to lift you before the throne of grace in the days to come. My you truly know the peace that passes understanding and the presence of God in a powerful way.

Miss X said...

After reading stories of people struggling/miscarrying/losing babies, I think obgyn's should post signs that say "Not all women here are lucky enough to be pregnant."

Anothermadhousewife said...

Ugh about having to wait so long.. .

I also just saw your comment on Angie's blog and wanted to say that I'm so sorry. I can't imagine what you're going through. I hope that the prayers and sympathy of strangers mean something. Erika

Jeremey and Jessica said...

Jen,
I found you through Angie's blog. I am grieving with you tonight over your losses. Thank you for the reminder of how precious a husband is. I will breathe mine in extra deep tonight.
Love and Prayers,
Jessica

Donna @ Way More Homemade said...

Prayed for you this evening.

~Donna

Jamie said...

I just read you entire blog, and Im so sorry for you losses. I will pray for you and your family.

Before I got on the computer tonight, I was irritated because my puppy had an accident on the floor. You've really put things in prospective for me.

Grace, Hope and Joy said...

I too read your post on Angie Smith's blog. I read your latest post on your blog and was so saddened by your story that I had to go back to your first blog post and just caught up to today. What a brave and strong woman you are. Most people don't go through in a lifetime what you have had to endure the past few weeks. I am so so sorry. Angie asked us to pray and I have chosen you to pray for specifically tonight (and I am sure many more).

p.s. I will be hugging my husband more tightly tonight when I go to sleep per your orders... Thank you for the reminder to not take our husbands for granted.

Marci @Finding Joy in the Journey said...

I too came through Angie's blog. I pray that you will know that there are random (possibly crazy =) strangers out here holding you in the warmth of prayer. I pray that God will ease your pain and make his presence known to you every day.

Robyn said...

I found your blog from Bring the Rain. I am so sorry for your losses. There is nothing anyone can say or do to make up for what has happened. I wish you well as you find your new "normal". God bless you-

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you...

Kristen said...

Jen, I caught your comment you left on Angie (Bring the Rain)'s blog. My heart tightened under the pain you must be feeling over your losses. I hope it's not weird or too forward of me for stopping by. I just wanted to let you know I am praying for you.

Tutu said...

Jen,

I just read your comment on Angie's blog and felt led to check out your blog. After reading your last post, I knew I had to comment. After my last miscarriage, I had a nightmare follow up visit too. I was left sitting in a very small waiting room with several pregnant women and a newborn baby. This was after the doctor's office called and asked me to come in 45 minutes early. I swear I was having visions of getting up and very calmly driving my car though their front door.

I cannot even begin to imagine the loss you must feel. You are most definetly in my thoughts and prayers.

~Susan

Stacia said...

I came to your blog through Angie's. I just wanted to say the only thing i can think of, I am so sorry for your two losses. Words can not describe your loss. My hubby is sleeping now, but I will take your challenge and love on him more because of your requests. Life is precious, and we often take it for granted. I have had three miscarriages, they happened in less than a 9 month time period, and so I know about that type of loss, and finding a new normal. Don't ever feel you have to hurry and "get over" what has happened in the last month. I have found since my losses in 2005 that there are weeks and even months that go by and I seem like I am doing fine and then something sets off the tears and sleepless nights.

So don't ever feel like you are backtracking when you have bad days. It's a journey that you will always be on.

nancy said...

Holy crap. My doctor always makes me wait at least an hour before I get to see him. But if I'm 15 minutes late checking in, they won't see me. Sucks, but I lurve my doctor so I stick it out.

I'm glad that everything is okay physically with you.

~hugs~

Annalien said...

I also read you comment on Angie's blog. I am so very sorry for your losses! No words we offer can take away your pain, but I hope that your load feels a bit lighter today, knowing that many people are praying for you.

Anonymous said...

I can't stand people who complain about pregnancy, they should be grateful for what they have!

I'm glad to hear that your physical has gone well and well done on the weight loss, I know it wasn't intentional, but all the same it must feel like an achievement!

(((Hugs)))

Kristen said...

I saw your comment on Angie's blog...and will come back to read more. I am sorry for these two major losses in your life. I will pray Jen, somehow for peace today in a quiet moment, to feel God's love. I am so sorry!

mindibz said...

Hi, Jen. I also come by way of Angie's blog. Just wanted to say how deeply sorry I am for both of your losses. I am lifting you up in prayer.

Hugs~

I Believe in Miracles said...

I wanted to slap that girl too. I'm so impressed that you held your tongue. I don't know that I could have. I'm sorry about the long wait. I am a super impatient person. If I arrive 5 minutes early, because I don't want to be late, I struggle waiting those 5 minutes.
I'm still praying for you.
**HUGS**

Jen said...

I dont ever leave comments on people's blogs. I guess one would call me a "blog stalker". I embrace the term fully. Your story is more than one should have to bear. Today, God is hearing my voice for you.

Kelly said...

I saw your comment on Angie's blog. I am praying for you. If you need a friend - I am here.

Joy said...

You don't know me, but I saw your post on Bring the Rain and just wanted to say I am praying for you today. I'm so sorry for the loss of the dear ones in your life. My tears are falling for you...

Jen said...

I also saw your comment on Angie's blog, and I wanted to let you know how sorry I am for your losses. I will pray for you tonight that your burdens will lessen. God bless you!

Jodi said...

My BFF told me she read about you last night from Angie's blog also. She was so touched (crying) and I just had to read too. Makes my heart hurt for you. I have had two miscarriages, so I can relate, but no one ever deserves to lose their mate, partner, and best friend. Nothing or no one will ever take his place, but I hope that your new puppy brings some much needed joy. Animals are amazing healers. Take care!

Katie said...

I came here from Angie's blog. Prayers coming your way today. So sorry to hear of your losses.

Jamie said...

Ugh - sitting in the doctor's office is so miserable. It is like I am getting hit from all angles. Pregnant women in the waiting room, pictures of babies plastered on anything that would sit still long enough. And to have to endure it for over two hours?!!? SHEESH!

Glad to hear your check-up came out good. Can't wait to see more pics of your puppy!

Lisa said...

Jen,
I saw your comment on Angie's blog. I hope you don't mind me stopping by: I am so sorry for your loss, and I am sure you are tired of hearing that. I will be praying for you, and praying that you are able to feel your Heavenly Father's arms surrounding you and comforting you.
I am really sorry for your bad experience in the waiting room! Some people really need a lesson on tactic in a closed office setting! ;) I had a really bad experience in my OB's waiting room, actually he was on a emergency c-section call as well!
Praying for you and for healing~
Blessings,
Lisa