Angel In My Eyes

Today I was in my room trying to get stuff around and ready for my trip. I say trying because I really wasn't having much luck at it. For some reason my mind just kept on wandering around and I really didn't get anything accomplished. Instead I just kind of dabbled in a little of everything. Anyhow, while I was dabbling I was listening to and watching country music videos.

All of a sudden a song that I haven't heard in years came on along with it's video. It's a song by John Michael Montgomery and it is called "Angel In My Eyes". This is a really special song to me and it instantly took me back to a moment in time. A moment when things were really really good. A moment when there was no grief, grieving or sadness in my life. You see from the very first night Shawn told me he loved me he called me his Angel. I'm not lying when I say this, he would call me his angel every single day. He would usually wake up, roll over and say "good morning, Angel" He would also say that I was his angel at different times during the day. He always told me that he wished he was talented enough to write me a song about why I was his angel and how much I meant to him. He told me he tried, but the words just wouldn't turn into the song he wanted. Shawn didn't need to write me a song for me to know how he felt about me. Shawn made it known to me every single day how much he loved me. To me a song wasn't going to change anything. Then one day while the two of us were snuggling on the couch listening to music we heard this song and saw the video to "Angel In My Eyes" on the TV. I remember the day like it was yesterday and it was over 10 years ago! Shawn looked at me and with amazement in his eyes told me that the words to that song explained exactly how he felt about me. Even before hearing this song Shawn told me that I was his angel because sometimes when I wasn't with him he could still feel me there and would almost get a chill from the feeling. He said that I was always guiding him to be a better person even when we weren't together and that the two of us made one complete person. So, this song, a song that I haven't heard in a very long time today has special meaning to me. Every time we would hear this song on the radio or TV Shawn would always sing it to me. I don't mean sing it while walking around. I mean sing it to me, while holding me and looking at me in the eyes. Oh, what I would give to have Shawn sing to me again! I miss Shawn so much! I was unexpectedly happy today to hear this song, but at the same time it took me right back to that special moment in time that is now only memory etched in my mind forever.

I've posted the video for you in case you want to give it a listen. However it's not the video from John Michael Montgomery. It's a video that goes to a soap opera, but the song is what you need to pay attention to. For those of you who don't want to watch the video I will type out the lyrics for you under the video.




I watch her lyin' in bed asleep
And I thank my lucky stars
For every second she is here with me
I wanna hold her in my arms
She's my day, she's my night
She is the breath that gives me life

But sometimes we laugh, sometimes we cry
Sometimes we fight and don't know why
But no matter what she believes in me
She's the closest thing to Heaven I'll ever see
She'll always be the angel in my eyes

Sometimes I feel her by my side
Like she's watchin' over me
I get a chill runnin' down my spine
And that's all the proof I need
That she fills my heart, she fills my soul
She is the half that makes me whole

But sometimes we laugh, sometimes we cry
Sometimes we fight and don't know why
But no matter what she believes in me
She's the closest thing to Heaven I'll ever see
She'll always be the angel in my eyes

But sometimes we laugh, sometimes we cry
Sometimes we fight and don't know why
But no matter what she believes in me
She's the closest thing to Heaven I'll ever see
She'll always be the angel in my eyes


Who would have thought all those years ago that life would turn out how it has. Who would have thought that Shawn would really become my angel instead of him just calling me his? Who would have thought all those years ago that now so many years later I would be the one getting chills every now and then running down my spine because I can feel him watching over me. I can still feel him, even though he is so far away from me. Who would have thought that Shawn singing this song to me would have such a different meaning today than it did then?

I miss Shawn more today than I did yesterday. I miss him more this month than I did last month. I miss him more every single day and there is nothing that I wouldn't do to hear Shawn sing this song to me once again. However, I'm also grateful that I have the best Angel watching over me and guiding me every single day. I'm so grateful that Shawn is the Angel in my eyes.