A Secret Revealed-"Sometimes Wishes Do Come True"

Wow...look at this...two posts in one week!! I'm on a roll. Sure I am, lets see if I can keep this up.

Okay, so I think it is time that I reveal one of little secrets that I have been keeping from all of you. I'm not sure why, but for some reason I just think the time is right that I share this with you. Are you all ready???....

Remember at the start of the summer when I posted about how great Memorial Day weekend was? Well if not I will refresh your memory and give you the short answer by telling you it was GREAT! Ry, his kids and myself all went to Traverse City for the weekend to my Grandparents house. It was a wonderful weekend and we all had a great time. It was probably one of the best weekends I have had up there in a long time. My entire family totally embraced Ry and the kids. It was just an overall fantastic weekend! The second half of the weekend we spent at Ry's parents cottage on another little lake near our town. The kids spent Sunday night with his parents so the two of us could go out with some friends and once again we had a great time. Okay, I think that pretty much sums up the background of our weekend. Now onto the secret....

You ready???

Well at the end of that fantastic Memorial Day weekend Ry and I told each other that we loved each other! You read that right...the big "L" word was used for the first time late that Sunday night! Here is the story....

Before Ry, the kids and I left Traverse City on that Sunday afternoon we decided to take the kids out to lunch at a little local pizzeria. Outside of the restaurant was a wishing well. Ry and I explained to the kids what a wishing well was and told them to make a wish when they threw their penny into the well. We told them that they couldn't tell anyone their wish because otherwise it would not come true. Ry's daughter who is seven totally got the concept, his little boy who is four not so much, but he still thought it was fun throwing a penny into the fountain. So Ry, gave each of the kids and myself a penny and with a smile told all three of us to make a wish. With that the three of us threw our pennies into the fountain. We all walked away with smiles on our faces and made the three hour drive back to Ry's parents cottage. We talked about wishing wells during our drive but none of us shared our wish with anyone.

So later that same night the kids stayed up at the cottage and Ry and I went out with some friends of ours. We ended up staying out really late but the four of us had a great time hanging out. After we left his friends that night Ry and I were talking. We weren't really talking about anything in specific, but we were having a great conversation. We tend to have our great talks late at night. So anyways, we were talking. All of a sudden Ry says, "You are awesome" Me being the idiot I am and not thinking this was going to be a "serious" moment says, "Yeah, I know that, I've been telling you that for a while now." Ry then goes, "No seriously, you are great, you are so awesome, I love you"

Uhmmm excuse me what did you just say?? So with those words, a lump in my throat and little tears in my eyes I replied with just that, "What did you just say?!" Ry says, "I love you" To which I respond with, "Well that is a really good thing because I love you too!"

After that the two of us talked about how we had both known our feeling for each other for a while, but we both had wanted to make sure our feelings were real and we weren't just caught up in the "emotions" of being in a relationship again. I think in a way we were both a little scared to say the "L" word because then it would take it to the next level. And while we had both been hurt in two totally different ways we had been hurt and didn't want to be hurt again. We talked about how things happen in your life for a reason and that yes, shit does happen to good people, as it had to both of us. We talked until the wee hours of the morning that night. We talked about how there are different kinds of love for the different people in our lives. He knows I will always love Shawn and I know he will always love his ex-wife who is the mother of his amazing kids. We talked about how the timing of things just happened to be right for us. So on Sunday May 30, Ry and I said that we loved each other for the first time.

But, here is the kicker of the story. Remember earlier that day when we all made the wish at the wishing well? Well the wish I made was that Ry and I would soon get to the point in our relationship where we would be able to tell each other that we loved each other. I had known for a while that I loved him and I figured he did too by his actions and things we talked about, but I wanted us to be able to get to the point where we actually said it. So saying "I love you" with Ry is what I wished for at the well earlier that day.

As we were talking I asked Ry if he wanted to hear something funny. He said sure he did. With that I told him that when we were at the wishing well with the kids that I wished that one day we would soon be able to say we loved each other. Ry, then gave me huge hug, gave me a kiss and whispered in my ear "Sometimes wishes do come true"

He was right, sometimes your wishes do come true. Little did I know that a wish I made hours earlier would come true. About seven months after Shawn died I wished for the happiness and for love to once again return to my life. I wished to be able to share love and happiness with another great guy, a great guy that Shawn would like and would approve of. I wished that wish every single night. Little did I know that both my wishes would come true when I would least expect them. I found Ry when I wasn't looking and our relationship is so great and he is just amazing. Wish one accomplished. Then once again when I wished to be able to say "I love you" it happened and how it happened was so special and great.

I am so lucky to be able to have loved and still love Shawn. I'm so lucky to be in love and to be loving Ry and to be loved back once again by a wonderful man. I am lucky.

Ry was right....Sometimes your wishes do come true.