Thank you ALL so much

I have a few minutes to myself and I just want to say a HUGE thank you to each and every one of you who have posted words of support,prayers, and encouragement to myself, our baby, and both our families. If I could personally thank each and every one of you I would. I would also give you each a huge hug.

I know we all don't "know" each other personally but I really feel like you all have become my friends thru all the blogs and thru the WebMd message boards. All the words have been a great comfort to me over the last few days.

Shawn made fun of me when I first started my blog, saying that we are boring people and nobody would ever read my blog. I also agreed with him. Whenever more than a few people would post to me I would tell him, "hey, I got 5 posts today!" all excited like a little kid. He would just laugh at me and say "silly girl" I'm sure he is getting a kick out of all the posts I've had from each of you caring people over the last several days. Actually he is probably laughing his ass off right now. I can hear him.

Yesterday and today I've been "ok", I haven't really broke down all that much. A few tears this morning from the "Just a Dream" song by Carrie Underwood, really hit home today. But so far that has been it. I even took a shower, got my hair done and took a quick trip to the mall. I only lasted a few hours, but at least I got out of the house.

Tomorrow is the two viewings at the funeral home and Monday is the funeral. So I'm sure those days are going to suck ass big time. But I think I will get thru it with my family, friends, and the coaching staff that are all going to be there. The coaching staff has been an amazing rock for me the last few days.

Shawn LOVED LOVED the University of Michigan football team. So I decided to have him wear his favorite jeans and his U of M football jersey. I also found the exact same jersey in an infant size so that will be placed in there with him, so he has his baby with him always. I also decided that for the funeral on Monday nobody will dress up. Shawn HATED getting dressed up and HATED even more wearing a suit. So we will all be wearing UofM football T-shirts instead. Right when we found out I was pregnant Shawn found a maternity t-shirt that had the block M and said "Future Wolverine" on it, so that is the shirt I will be wearing. I'm obviously not showing, but figured it would be fine. All the flowers for the casket will also be blue and yellow. I really figured the best way to celebrate his life was do celebrate the things he loved, and that's what we are going to do. Shawn also taught me to stand up for myself and that I'm a stronger person than I gave myself credit for. I guess over the next few days, weeks, and months we will see how right he was. I'm really trying hard for him!

Ok, now I'm almost in tears again, so I should probably get going. But I just wanted to say thank you again for all of your kind words, thoughts, and prayers. I've really needed them and they have all helped.

I will update more in a few days.
THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart.

Jenny