It's Not As Easy As It Sounds

What you ask?

Well having or should I say trying to have a baby. Who would have thought it would be that hard? My regular Dr. (not my OB/GYN) told me at my physical last July, that I would be pregnant in 3 months. Umm well Doc, that time has gone and passed and in 4 weeks it will be one year from that yearly physical and still no baby.

Now just a little background on our TTC journey so far, just so those of you that don't know me, get where I'm coming from in the upcoming posts.

Well my husband and I decided last year in June that we were ready to start our family. I mean neither of us are getting any younger. So after 7 years of being on the pill I went off in July of 2007, so almost a year ago. I gave my body a month to get adjusted to being off the pill and then in September we decided to go for it. So we tried Sept, Oct., and November without any luck at all. However, I will say that when we first started out, I really didn't know much about TTC and just figured it would happen. I also used those friggin online calendars that tell you when you are ovulating. MISTAKE NUMBER1!! By December I wasn't pregnant, so we knew we were already going to take the months of December-February off. (We didn't want to get pregnant during those months, b/c then there would be a chance my husband would be gone for birth time)

During the "break" I read a great book about TTC and figured a lot of stuff out. I also took this time to educate myself about everything that goes into TTC. What an eye opening experience is all I have to say. It amazes me that people get pregnant on "accident"! There is alot that goes into this process!

Then in March we started trying again, and we are still trying. I'm now on Cycle 11 of TTC. However I'm not really sure that the first 3 months would have been a success due to the lack of right time, this includes the time off as well. Although, we didn't really prevent it from happining either. However since March we have had perfectly timed out cycles, but still waiting for our BFP.

In February I had an appointment with my OB/GYN who specializes in fertility related issues. He said that I was perfectly healthy and that we just needed to have sex more. My husband LOVED his answer!! He also did blood work to make sure I was ovulating. Which I am, based on two months of bloodwork. He also did an internal ultrasound to make sure everything looked good inside. He said it did, just to keep working at it.

The Dr. also said that I could get an HSG test done and that my husband could get a SA, not that he thought there was anything wrong, just that we could if we wanted to. In February, we talked about it and decided we should wait for a little while longer before getting any "testing" done. Simply for the fact, that NOTHING in our life comes easy for us and we figured at that time we had only reallly tried for like 3 months. However, now I wonder if we should just go ahead and get the tests done. It has now been 4 months of perfectly timed out cycles and nothing. But at the same time I'm scared shitless to get the tests done. Why? What if there is a problem with either of us....that's the scariest part. For me that is even scarier than waiting and trying for a year.

We decided in Febuary that we would wait a solid 12 months of trying before we got the tests done. That time will come in October. I really don't know if I can wait that long, even though I'm scared out of my freakin mind to have them done. Fearing what the results could be.
Then there is that other part of me that says why go thru all the testing when it can take a normal healty up to a year before they get lucky, a fact that I've read, and been told my numerouse people, including my OB.

So in a really big nutshell this is my TTC history thus far. I have NOT had any tests done to say we or I am infertle, by any stretch of the imagination. However, I do know what if feels like to have gone thru 8 cycles of BFN's and it SUCKS!

I will update on any exciting or late breaking baby developments as they happen. I will also say that my husband has been my rock and has been GREAT thru this whole process.

I promise in the future my posts will NOT be this long, just wanted to finish filling you all in.